Welcome back to me!! After a critical and stressful month of chemistry I am back to the land of the living!! I know that my title choice is a little vague but I promise I am getting to that. As many of you know I have always wanted to be a dental hygienist and FINALLY my dreams came true when I got my acceptance letter the the University of Tennessee (my daddy's alma mater) in June. I only had one more pre- requisite to finish to complete my requirements for UT and that was chemistry 2. I started my chem. class on July 5 and was not excited at all!! Going into the course I did not expect it to be easy, however I also did not expect to possibly lose my opportunity to go to hygiene school. I will never be able to explain to anyone (other than my momma because she lived it with me) how stressful, horrible, and tragic the last month was for me. I know it sounds like I'm being dramatic but when you face the fact that 1 course that you will NEVER even use in your life is going to determine your future it's very scary, to put it mildly. Through this class however God completely broke me for the better. After the second week of class I told my mom I'm supposed to learn something from this course but I don't think it's chemistry." This was my AWAKENING...... What I NEED to stress the most is to make sure that you are walking where you are supposed to with God and have your heart right, so that when you need to pray like I had to, you can go to our Father completely.
This story is even too completely too long to share but I can say that chemistry TRULY changed my life! LOL God taught me through the fear of losing my career that I HAVE got to rely on Him fully and CAN NOT waiver in my walk with Him!! I began praying the outcome of the course in His will and asking Him for a peace and that regardless of the outcome that I would praise Him and only Him because He knows best.
I also have got to say thank you to my parents for paying for me to go to a college where the professors actually care about how you do and excel. However, praise God that He works through non believers. The last week of my class I still had a D and had completely given everything over to God because I was at the end of my sanity from worry (I lost a LOT of hair and a LOT of weight during this course). I told my mom at this time that we needed to change the way we were praying and to start praying for my instructor! God is still in the business of miracles!!! My instructor changed his grading scale at the LAST minute which he did not have to do. By him changing the scale it made my grade the lowest C (is my God great or what). There were still over 9 people under me with D's and F's.... my heart goes out to them because I would HATE to think about going through that again.
I'm proud to say that my God provided, yet again, another avenue to my career!!! Before the class He provided me with my acceptance letter when I was originally an alternate, an apartment on Mud Island when there were no leases left, and with a great room mate (I got to meet her a few weeks ago) when I didn't know anyone and was scared of living alone. ALL praises to God!!!!!!
I truly hope that my dementia never gets to bad because I NEVER won't to forget the magnificent lesson that God so graciously gave me through allowing me to become so completely broken that I was able to see all of my wrongs and to correct and make my 180 to Him!! THIS IS MY AWAKENING!!!!